Saturday, 28 March 2009

Memory

I had an exam at the end of the last week and its following weekend means nothing but weekend and enjoying it without feeling guilty of getting engaged in those businesses that are not really related to the pending tasks.
I've had 7 modules so far and one thing has been happening after taking each exam and has come to my notice now. I take the exams on Thursday evenings, then it doesn't matter if I sleep at 9, 10,11 or 12 at night, the next morning exactly at 4-5 I wake up with one of the questions that I faced the day before as if that question is whispering itself into my ears and I automatically think about the answer that I wrote and this goes on till I fully get back to my consciousness and start to feel that I'm not asleep anymore. It's not like I was thinking about that specific question the night before and I've never been like this as long as I can remember.
The last term the topic was about memory and its underlying mechanism. Apart from neural events that form our memory traces what makes matters get stuck or erased from our mind is the amount of "attention" we pay on them and I was thinking how efficient could be if we had this capability to notice to those things that are really worth noting, imagine if we could actually see nice words and kind gestures from people around and not those' who don't care about others' feelings, how incredibly free our mind would be then when no strong traces of the bitter feelings could be found later.
One more thing, I have this ability to get lost so easily, I've never been good at directions and apparently for this not so great spatial memory of mine my Hippocampus is to blame but it can get bigger and for that I need to pay attention much more or become a taxi driver as apparently they have big Hippocampuses ;).

Saturday, 21 March 2009

Norouz


And when you repeat "Norouz" twice when you're talking about your new year, that's a reminder telling you're out of Norouz's birthplace for the second time but you still can smell it, you know it's not because of the spring like weather in here which helps you to feel so, it was in Libya last year and the weather was not helping and still you could feel Norouz... It's you and it'll always be.

Happy Spring, Happy new year every body! :)

Wednesday, 11 March 2009

"When they discover the center of the universe, a lot of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it".
Bernard Baily

Sunday, 8 March 2009

Notebook

It's good to talk, I can look at my feelings once they have sounds and motions. It was the same when I used to write but not exactly the same since now it can be difficult to return to those sounds and see their motions while looking at the written words was always possible you know, and my handwriting was there with its constant changing.
Since that cold freezing day I started to talk even more and started to write much less and I don't mind if I won't be able to see those words again and I'm not wondering if my handwriting has been changing since then. And you started to be written in like a notebook from that day and it was freezing cold...

Tuesday, 3 March 2009