Sunday, 28 July 2013
He was limping as he walked, looked like it took him a lot of energy to do so, making all different sounds like a fragile old man when he sat right next to me. I asked his owner how old he was. 8 and half years, he replied. Taking him with himself, he continued with his Spanish accent and a bitter smile: That's life...
Posted by Behdokht at 23:03
Tuesday, 23 July 2013
Far from our ordinary life, we are in a countryside enjoying a spectacular view of a Spanish scenery. I can hear nothing other than the sound of nature, and the touch of my fingers on the keyboard right at this moment. That was the whole purpose of our trip this time to get detached from all the external and not so pleasant noises, and to chill out and enjoy the present. My head is a mixture of different thoughts and feelings. I think compared to our previous trips, this time I can absorb and appreciate the present more. The place that we are staying is gorgeous, the food is fantastic and the atmosphere is extremely warm and welcoming. We are already thinking of coming back during the winter.
Posted by Behdokht at 11:28
Friday, 5 July 2013
Since almost 3 years ago, all I've done was around a deadline to submit a paper, and by all I mean ALL. I'm literally exhausted, don't get me wrong, whenever I look at the data, the beautiful data soon to be submitted, and the painting I did on the brain sections, the incredible world that I see under the confocal microscope, and for all I've learned within these years I say it was worth the pain and the difficult days. But, I have difficulty remembering and recognizing myself, and that what else I can be and do beside doing experiments. It's been almost 2 years since my last trip to Iran, and I'm still emotionally attached to that part of the planet. I un/consciously ignore my feeling until I miss there so deeply that I start dreaming about places, streets and our apartment in Tehran. The dream is not so frequent but the effect is so deep. In the body of a grown up person, I still cry like a baby for hours if someone in my work environment says or does something that I find hurtful.
Posted by Behdokht at 23:32
Tuesday, 21 May 2013
Sunday, 19 May 2013
Iran's presidential election is getting close. You can see a lot of hot discussions are going on in Persian blogs and websites as well as on Facebook between my Iranian fellows and friends. Some are strongly arguing in favor of going to the polls and vote, and the others boycotting the election, staying put firmly on their position stating that they are not going to make the same mistake they made 4 years ago. Sometimes you can see the conflict turning to a sort of harsh argument, both trying to convince, or prove the other side wrong. To me, the whole decision making looks quite tough, the picture I can see of what is, and has been going on is filled with contradictions. I think there is a point in the logical argument each side is trying to make. So far, I see myself shifting gradually towards the presidency ballot, but there is a great deal of uncertainty in every little move I make...
Posted by Behdokht at 14:04
Monday, 6 May 2013
You are aware that you have the right to disagree with someone over something, you should know how to do it without being aggressive, and there is a chance that the fear of looking aggressive would make you so over-careful that you end up not speaking your mind properly.
The fact that you suppress your opinion is not right, and in fact can be mentally harmful. It can damage the potential constructive relationship that you could have with the person you have not shared your real/different opinion with.
But, the questions are :
how you can disagree without looking like a difficult person,
and how to speak your mind without looking like a diffident one?
And now in my 30s, I came to realize how important it is to find practical answers to these questions.
Posted by Behdokht at 19:58