Thursday, 23 March 2017

Started going through the previous posts in here, and god, I feel I'm 100 years old now! I cannot even begin to describe the loads of stuff I've been experiencing so far. I've changed from one version of being sentimental to another. I think quicker, am more direct and skeptical than before. I guess that's what doing a PhD did to me.  One thing has not changed though, still trying to find my way. Busy getting serious with my career path, job haunting, recovering from some of my past experiences and getting prepared for the next round. It doesn't end, does it? 

Sunday, 22 February 2015


So, what have been the highlights since I blogged last time?
I got older and still in search of satisfaction, I have a paper that got officially accepted, and the cover image of the journal in which the paper will be published, is going to be my most favourite microscopic image.  Exciting, isn't it?!  But, nothing was easy regarding this paper, a bunch of unfortunate events happened on the way to the process of submissions, which left me extremely disappointed as well as distracted from the main purpose. I think I've lost that naive innocent spirit through all the challenges I've been facing in the professional scientific environment, and still am trying to realise how I should put things in perspective so that I could move on and be optimistic again.

What else? One of my lab-mates committed suicide and took his own life some months ago. He was a smart knowledgeable medical doctor busy doing his PhD in our lab. There was a minute of silence and a lot of small talks starting with the words "why", "how" and "I wonder" for a while in the lab, and now,  every one's back to the normal scientific talks.

Like always, Mr.B continues to be the good news in my life, and the last hightlight of my today's post.

This blog is like a very kind relative or friend, no matter for how long I ignore her, she's always sitting here with open arms.

Saturday, 3 August 2013

Sunday, 28 July 2013

He was limping as he walked, looked like it took him a lot of energy to do so, making all different sounds like a fragile old man when he sat right next to me. I asked his owner how old he was. 8 and half years, he replied. Taking him with himself, he continued with his Spanish accent and a bitter smile: That's  life...

Tuesday, 23 July 2013

Far from our ordinary life, we are in a countryside enjoying a spectacular view of a Spanish scenery. I can hear nothing other than the sound of nature, and the touch of my fingers on the keyboard right at this moment. That was the whole purpose of our trip this time to get detached from all the external and not so pleasant noises, and to chill out and enjoy the present. My head is a mixture of different thoughts and feelings. I think compared to our previous trips, this time I can absorb and appreciate the present more. The place that we are staying is gorgeous, the food is fantastic and the atmosphere is extremely warm and welcoming.  We are already thinking of coming back during the winter. 

Friday, 5 July 2013


Since almost 3 years ago, all I've done was around a deadline to submit a paper, and by all I mean ALL. I'm literally exhausted, don't get me wrong, whenever I look at the data, the beautiful data soon to be submitted, and the painting I did on the brain sections, the incredible world that I see under the confocal microscope, and for all I've learned within these years I say it was worth the pain and the difficult days. But, I have difficulty remembering and recognizing myself, and that what else I can be and do beside doing experiments. It's been almost 2 years since my last trip to Iran, and I'm still emotionally attached to that part of the planet. I un/consciously ignore my feeling until I miss there so deeply that I start dreaming about places, streets and our apartment in Tehran. The dream is not so frequent but the effect is so deep. In the body of a grown up person, I still cry like a baby for hours if someone in my work environment says or does something that I find hurtful. 

Tuesday, 21 May 2013

The whole thing got ridiculously funny! No vote, no confusion any more.