Monday, 24 December 2012

When I started writing in here, it was mostly about what was going on in my very internal world, the world of my personal thoughts and concerns.  People who were around me were not standing too close if they were not close to me. Things were rather selective. I could choose with whom I wanted to spend my quality time, I would spend or prefer to spend my time with the ones that I could trust, and had common interests, with the ones that I could click and had a chemistry with.
When you enter into the real world, things are not that selective anymore. There, you start or try to learn how to cope with someone that you have little in common. You try to make a bridge since that's how you can go on, that's how you can survive. But, it does not necessarily mean that you always enjoy those close interactions. You will definitely face some ups and downs which help you grow.
The question is how far you should or you can go, how much you should put up with things that you do not find reasonable. How much you should take your own rights into consideration without being unfair, and who can actually determine what is truly "fair".
Now, I am experiencing things which are totally new to me. They have been consuming so much of my physical and mental energy as well as taking away my focus.
In the lab, I'm advised to think more and say what is fair, I'm advised to be careful not to give in for the sake of being nice as well. This is the last thing I want right at this time. It's the holiday season. I want to be happy, and in a merry mood. I need to be concentrated as I will have a lot of work to do, and to prepare.  I have difficulty feeling truly happy, it's tough out there. It can get very tough out there. 

4 comments:

Toranj said...

after searching and searching i found hear & i'm thrilled about it! it made me so angry that i'd totally forgotten the address! :(
now i read your blog too and we're even :p

Behi said...

Thank you my dearest Toranj, my little sunshine! :) Really glad to see you over here as well. True, now we are totally even! ;)

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