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To give you an overall view of how my days look like I tell you this: A month ago I was recommended for physiotherapy. I requested to go to the therapist in the hospital I work as I thought it would be more practical for me to switch my places in the building I already am when needed and this has stayed only in theory so far. Not every weekend is free anymore and during the last weeks sometimes I had to leave the department not sooner than 10.p.m. I cannot feel the days and this is my wish most of the time that a day was more than 24 hours. I feel lucky that I had a chance to join a very vibrant work environment and I feel also stressed. I'm in the middle of my learning process and also in charge of the results of the project that I started. This makes me excited + stressed! I'm starting to know myself more in the new atmosphere with new challenges and in the meantime sometimes I just need to stop, to pause and grab my shoulders, look at myself and think for a little while. The painting class looks nothing like the world that I actually live and makes me feel I entered a different world; world of colors for 2 hours and got back to the real world. And the Dutch course is the latest activity that I'm taking together with Mr.B wondering when would be the possible/productive time of the day to practice and do the homework. Until I realize this goedenavond!

Lab memoirs (?)

I try to avoid turning here to a lab memoirs and it's worked only via the not writing approach so far. I guess after a while when I feel more settled, I can see the whole me and not only me at the lab. Or maybe I let it go and start writing about my work, after all this chapter is new and truly exciting.
PS: Painting is amusing

And I report!

Next week my work will start. My research topic + my future boss + knowing almost all my lab-mates were enough of the reasons to make my mind on joining the lab and at the time I thought: "No shocking surprises perhaps". I hope if I was not totally right I'd be able to deal and think like a grown up confident person.
And one lesson from the last two years would be getting involved in more than one activity. I'm finally going to take a painting course once a week, it's time I think (need).

One day

One day I'll pick what I dropped when I was a little girl. I'll start painting on a paper with drawing pencils or on a really big canvas and I'll do that with all the colors that I admire.
One day I'll start reading the poems that I liked and I forgot, the ones that I started and never finished and the ones that I never started.