Still have to work on my social interactions and the points that my attention goes to. Otherwise, my time can be easily eaten up by (negative) thoughts that do nothing but harm. 

I spent 8 years of my life at one faculty building. 6 years at one lab, working with more and less the same people and getting completely used to a certain working atmosphere/culture. As a result, my (working) values got defined within a certain framework. I had some very great times there that made me believe leaving that place would be the hardest thing to do when the time comes. Also, I had my share of getting extremely frustrated, depressed and disappointed.
I ended up having mixed feelings when I officially left there. Now, it's time for me to experience new atmospheres, to meet and to work with new people, and to explore more. Life should be more fun or better to say I should be more active in making it more fun and exciting than before as it has a great potential to be more pleasant. If I've learned one lesson so far, is that for whatever feeling we have, we are the responsible ones to make it better or worse. People come and go, their effects cannot and sometimes should not last more than it should. 

Started going through the previous posts in here, and god, I feel I'm 100 years old now! I cannot even begin to describe the loads of stuff I've been experiencing so far. I've changed from one version of being sentimental to another. I think quicker, am more direct and skeptical than before. I guess that's what doing a PhD did to me.  One thing has not changed though, still trying to find my way. Busy getting serious with my career path, job haunting, recovering from some of my past experiences and getting prepared for the next round. It doesn't end, does it? 

Highlights

So, what have been the highlights since I blogged last time?
I got older and still in search of satisfaction, I have a paper that got officially accepted, and the cover image of the journal in which the paper will be published, is going to be my most favourite microscopic image.  Exciting, isn't it?!  But, nothing was easy regarding this paper, a bunch of unfortunate events happened on the way to the process of submissions, which left me extremely disappointed as well as distracted from the main purpose. I think I've lost that naive innocent spirit through all the challenges I've been facing in the professional scientific environment, and still am trying to realise how I should put things in perspective so that I could move on and be optimistic again.

What else? One of my lab-mates committed suicide and took his own life some months ago. He was a smart knowledgeable medical doctor busy doing his PhD in our lab. There was a minute of silence and a lot of small talks starting with the words "why", "how" and "I wonder" for a while in the lab, and now,  every one's back to the normal scientific talks.

Like always, Mr.B continues to be the good news in my life, and the last hightlight of my today's post.


This blog is like a very kind relative or friend, no matter for how long I ignore her, she's always sitting here with open arms.

Creating a false memory

He was limping as he walked, looked like it took him a lot of energy to do so, making all different sounds like a fragile old man when he sat right next to me. I asked his owner how old he was. 8 and half years, he replied. Taking him with himself, he continued with his Spanish accent and a bitter smile: That's  life...

Far from our ordinary life, we are in a countryside enjoying a spectacular view of a Spanish scenery. I can hear nothing other than the sound of nature, and the touch of my fingers on the keyboard right at this moment. That was the whole purpose of our trip this time to get detached from all the external and not so pleasant noises, and to chill out and enjoy the present. My head is a mixture of different thoughts and feelings. I think compared to our previous trips, this time I can absorb and appreciate the present more. The place that we are staying is gorgeous, the food is fantastic and the atmosphere is extremely warm and welcoming.  We are already thinking of coming back during the winter.